Why do I do this? Why do I intentionally walk down roads I know are only going to end in pain? Why, in my otherwise healthy body, is there a part (perhaps the same part that likes Scotch and Denny’s) that attacks the host, always choosing the thing that will cause the most harm?
And when presented with the chance of something good with someone decent, why do I close off to him, while doing everything in my power to sabotage any chances I might have?
